| No More Regrets |
[May. 5th, 2009|10:35 pm] |
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all i had was paper towels last night and it stuck to my skin with all the fucking sticky plasma and shit and i peeled it out and took an hour to clean it and the healing process is fucking irritating and i don't know what to wear to school so that it won't hurt like it does nowwwwwwwwww. i had to manually remove all the bits and pieces of tissue that were stuck and put this stupid bandage which is nowhere near big enough and is already damp with god knows what mixed with vaseline and ink when its already so damn thick. my pjs feel damp too. oh and my bedsheet has an imprint of the tattoo haha. i was that tired that i stuck myself to my bed. i need my medic boyfriend please.
but it's worth it, it's so worth it. finally i have what i waited three long years for, exactly how i want and from the very person who should do it best. :) i am fucking happy. thanks dil for staying till the end past midnight, walking to sim lim and back and making me eat, though she bloody kept laughing at me shaking away like a leaf. i have never shaken so violently in my life and will never be so fucking stupid to tattoo my spine while having my goddamn period ever again!!! don't EVER try it. and better eat before you do it even if you have no appetite. adreneline is not food and neither is it a painkiller.
this feels like a fresh start. just before i sat in the chair i made everyone said 'byeeee' to the old one. BYEEEEEEE!!!! hahahahaha.
the design that sam painted for me is hanging on the wall of gimme love 2 now which makes me super happy! i think it's the prettiest one (of course la) and he put in a lot of work for it... and it really only cost 50 bucks more than the first though its 4-5 times bigger!
thankyou sam :D:D:D
i can't wait to show my boyfriend my back tmr/thursday/whenever he's booking out and he's springing me a surprise on friday! :) he's the sweetest thing sometimes. like 0.5% of the time. okay kidding. he's mostly sweet except when he's happily slapping me around in little big planet and making me fall down and die while collecting everything for himself.
i know it sounds funny but going through the 4 hours makes me feel like i'm finally really worth the effort.
i am a clean slate now.
dirty, but clean. ;)
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